I Want You - Third Eye Blind

I WANT YOU
(Jenkins)

(That was really good......yeah)
The suckers loose themselves in the games they learn to play, 
Children love to sing but then their voices slowly fade away. 
People always take a step away from what is true, 
That's why I like you around,

I want you. 
Yeah you do... you make me want you.

An open invitation to the dance, 
Happenstance set the vibe that we are in, 
No apology because my urge is genuine, 
And the mystery of your rhythm is so feminine. 
Here I am and I want to take a hit, 
Of your scent 'cos it bit, 
So deep into my soul, 
I want you.

Yeah you do you do, you make me want you. 
Oh you do you do, you make me want you. 
(Send me all your vampires), 
And I can't get enough, 
And I can't get enough,

The village church yard is filled with bones weeping in the grave, 
The silver lining of clouds shines on people Jesus couldn't save, 
You want to know how deeply my soul goes, Deeper than bones, deeper than bones

Oh you do you do, you make me want you. 
Oh you do you do, you make me want you. 
(Send me all your vampires), 
And I can't get enough, 
And I can't get enough,

After we did it by the window sill, 
Smoke rings drift into the midnight sky, 
presently in the quilt that your mother made, 
A prayer candle burns to fight off the gloom, 
I said to live in this way is not for the meek, 
And like a jazz DJ you talk me into sleep, 
There will be no regrets when the worms come, 
And they will surely come.

You do you do, I want you, 
(Send me all your vampires), 
I want you

I Feel A Bit Melancoly Tonight

Countless nite passed since my last entry. I married to my love of my life and expecting the best gift Universe's giving me in this part of the space. If it's a baby boy i'll name him Tristan El Hakam Yara and if it's a girl, she'll be known as Hifsa Savita Ichtaca Yara. Call me whatever you want, i know the USG's result but expect the unexpected.

I'm waiting for the planet and the stars to get aligned and ready to celebrate my child arrival. Looking at 2-3 days, it's always like that, in the end, it's up to the Supreme God.

thousands miles of velvet blue scarf

that written about her beauty and full of her

Time To Think

The mountain is so high with it soothing breeze and splendid atmosphere,
it just feel so right. She have everything you need like fruit when
you'fe feeling healthy, the finest of the water spring from mother
earth, you can eat anything that walks with four feet or no foot at all
when you're feeling mmm a bit out of yourself even annoying mosqueto and
poisonous venom when you're not careful with your step... all and all,
this is the best thing ever happen to yourself. Yet, even God Himself
gave men 25 prophets and 4 holy books, there's comforts with adventure.
The beach is nice, you think, with it flirty wave, the water just feel
so exotic when it hugs your body, it just feel so ... hmmm ... fun. Now
the catch, it's just not came in a package.

phobia

I dont like this. i keep checking on the phone waiting for her call
every exactly 15 seconds, i count. she promised to call me, but checking
every 15 seconds, i think even that is too much. my anxiesity building
up every 15 seconds which lead me to the temper zone. every 15 seconds
my mind grows nervous, steadily, this is not me. well it is me, when i
got owned. I'm getting comfortly uncomfortable with the whole situation.
where i want her solely for me. not even want to share with the rest of
the world. if i cant have that, I'm angry with myself. somewhere inside
my head the devil tempt me," maybe she's calling some guy, isnt that the
guy she crushed on couple years ago?". jealousy turning saint into the
sea. every 15 seconds i hear an increasing pace of my heartbeat. the
devil slowly tingling my heart, every 15 seconds. oh no, this is not me
if this is me i dont like this me. i think I'll start to have bizzare
dreams, of losing her. this whole thing making me uncomfortly comfortable.

December Sorrow

then i realise
i'm sleeping a dreamless sleep
waking a sorrow day
as if i walking on this
endless path of nightmare
without you holding my hand
a bliss to my troubled eye
lonely, have been my day of late
then i realise
how your voice can guide me
walk, nay, fly through this oblivion
madness, laid before me when
i can't hear
that delightful tone you use to call
reach for me
delusive, have been my hours of late
now i realise
my heart giving an empty beat
false pulse
woe in every vein
i'm hollow

Sunday Morning

Sunday morning rain is falling
Steal some covers share some skin
Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable
You twist to fit the mould that I am in
But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
And I would gladly hit the road get up and go if I knew
That someday it would lead me back to you
That someday it would lead me back to you

That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning
And I never want to leave

Fingers trace your every outline
Paint a picture with my hands
Back and forth we sway like branches in a storm
Change the weather still together when it ends

That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning
And I never want to leave

But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
Sunday morning rain is falling and I'm calling out to you
Singing someday it'll bring me back to you
Find a way to bring myself back home to you

And you may not know
That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow?

End of Year Commission Report

Then i realised
I'm sleeping a dreamless sleep
Waking a sorrow day
As if i walking on this
Endless path of nightmare
Without you holding my hand
A bliss to my troubled eye
Lonely, have been my day of late
Then i realised
How your voice can guide me
Walk, nay, fly through this oblivion
Madness, laid before me when
I cant hear
That delightful accent you use to call
reach for me
Delusive, have been my hours of late
Now i realise
My heart giving a meaningless beat
A false hope in every pulse
Woe in every cell
I'm hollow

Horizon

She was my horizon line
An imaginary line
That getting away
When i approach it
Who she might be
A girl from mars?
Is she Juno?
Or with that Monalisa smile?
Or even Venus herself?
O well...
I draw my own horizon line
Close enough for my hand to reach
For me to smell
For me to love
Mais...
yo siempre recuerdo las dos monedas en esa fuente
Como Juno. Como Venus. Ella hará siempre allí
Como mí, yo encuentro mi amor

Where'd u go tis new year's eve?

moi?! i want to go somewhere remote, totally. so i can experience new year's eve like another breeze less night. like another night where i lay back restless against my bed wondering what tomorrow have for me. like another night where i ... just like another night.

to every questions out there asking why i'd do such thing, i have your answer. this will be my 23rd new year's for me. i can have my party any other time in a week. i have my reason to get wasted, even tonight. i can hang out with my friends any time i want without having them complaining to me. and to any other stereotype question.

Terrible

Kutemui dia di sudut sepi hatiku
Duduk termenung entah apa yang ada di kepalanya
Ia datang membawa cerita lama
Seribu pertanyaan "kenapa tidak?"
I stare at her willing to share
After all this is where my heart is dwell
Then i saw there's no end to this enigma
I decided this is the only place for me
Sayang, bukan kau tak cukup untuk semua ini
Baby, stay here next to me
This is the waktu when aku butuh kamu the most

New Year Eve's Drawing Near

*sigh* another year's going by. Where will i be this new year eve? What will i become next year? With Whom i might spend that night? *sigh*. Always, such an endless questions.

Blazing 24hours

So, i cruisin the dawn with billy looking for sum net cafe. First, we ended up at jalan cilacap who turned out filled with plenty of geeks and slow internet connection. I told billy we should zip from the spot find somewhere else. Then i remembered a place mentioned in my friendster bulletin board @ sarinah.

We came, We online and trust me i keep astounds. The place is marvelous. 150 pcs, sum with dual core pentium procesor. Private booth. A/C (freezing). Good service, no-one bothering us up to now. And what more is, since its a trial, we got 7 hours free.

Gotta tell you guys, this place is something. It call 24 hours cyber cafe or something at sarinah next to Manchester United Cafe.

Rudyard Kipling

/If...
If you can keep your head when all about you are losing theirs and
blaming it on you
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you but make allowance for
their doubting you
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting or being lied about, don't
deal in lies or being hated, don't give way to hating and yet don't look
too good, nor talk too wise

If you can dream, and not make dreams your master
If you can think, and not make thoughts your aim
If you can meet with triumph and disaster and treat those two impostors
just the same
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken twisted by knaves to
make a trap for fools or watch things you give you life to, broken and
stoop and build'em up with worn-out tools

If you can make one heap of all your winnings and risk it all on one
turn of pitch-and-toss and lose, and start again at your beginnings and
never breath a word about your loss
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew to server your turn long
after they are gone and so hold on when there is nothing in you except
the will which says to them "hold on!"

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue or walk with Kings -
nor lose the common touch
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you
If all men count with you, but none too much
If you can fill the unforgiving minute with sixty seconds worth of
distance run
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it and -which is more-
you'll be a Man!

/Thanks to you for showing this ;)

Wind of Change

Then one day i told my friends," dude there's something happened today
that would change me forever". Everybody start questioning the reason.
Even I cant find the reason. I just feel like it, change, of course.

I feeling like getting married, graduate my college any time soon
(ASAP), taking control my life, raising children, get myself a good job,
a good business and stuff. Billy told me that my age is catching up on
me. Maybe he just right or maybe he is not, a just answer by the way.

But, i fully agree with a certain entity that i did look up for some
enlightment.

Rizalsiminasi Part II

Never thought this blog will survive to see this day. that mean it has been a year i use tis blog.
Now, about being 24 ya? ... nothing change, just plain simply me... nothing more nothing less.

Too many blogs

Whoa!! i caught myself in the middle of one,two,three ... five blogs so far. i dont know what i gotta do with all of these? Blogger got the most efficient feature, log-in and log plus the email feature. friendster on the other side got this link rite, so everybody's being frequently notified each time i update my blog.

i'm thinking about using the blogger... 1 account with multiple blogs is allowed. but i'm still figuring how to keep my friend update... hmmm

Sonnet 73

That time of the year thou mayst in me behold
When yellow leaves, or none, or few, do hang
Upon those bhoughs which shake against the cold
Bare ruin'd choirs, where late the sweet birds sang
In me thou seest the twilight of such day
As after sunset fadeth in west
Which by and by black night doth take away
Death's second self, that seals up all in rest
In me thou seest the glowing of such fire
That on the ashes on his youth doth lie
As the death-bed whereon must expire
Consumed with that which it was nourish'd by
This thou perceivest, which makes thy love more strong
To love that well which thou must leave ere long

i thought i was better than men, utterly
as i live my life taking a slight different from the common
by measuring things through and thoroughly
here and there i find myself thinking
figuring which box i'd choose next
fear of stepping at the wrong foot
but then came linda
a white silhoutte travelling at speed of light
stealing everything on her path
on the way to my heart, mystifying
her smile past through my multihued disguise
left me with nothing to hide
now, thinking seems a bit bias
every step feels vulnerable
i surrender myself to over-exposure
there where i find myself
sitting amongst men
the stupid one

and so i've heard a storm is coming this way as the february 10th drawing near
storm is a term what they used to call an over 70km/hours wind and over 1mm/sec raindrops
which can summon a major skimuluswateverish cloud in less then 15 minutes
but when my car stopped and i kissed my girl, unchecked
huh?! whats dat again??
what storm??

bons anjos que ela disse
the last few weeks, my life becoming so seductive
a sensuous life-style ridden my self control over one body
some of the part hardly inconceivalbe
while the rest grooming incubus in my head
my love worthy girl friend getting luscious
lunacy coup de main my mind
cobice nunca sido este maravilhoso
um majéstico leve derrotado meu lógico pensou
agora, aqui escrevo em portuguesse
porque pensa que isto é o laguage bem belo
por que? sou eu mantenhou fazer isto a mim?

Dawg, it was a men night out
another miles down the road
another alcohol down the throat
until the dawn passed and the sun rose
have a chat over coffee
and then we realise
shit dawg it was a boys night out

Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
but no matter
as much as my heart captivated
seperti kita yang dulu lagi

Day becomes night
Night passed
A silly 30 hours rolled
What a mess we've been through?

i sneaks up on my dream every now and then
have all my wish listed and double checked
hate it when something missed
a kiss that been missing all this time replaced
not much alike but a real vibe
thin red line become a real thin red line
where morale took even another step forward
where hands took even another step deeper
no one can tell which is worst or which is better
no one can tell which is forbid or which is not
but when everything stops
there's a sweet bliss between us
and i have it double checked