Purusha

I Want You - Third Eye Blind

2008-12-16T15:49:00.000+07:00

I WANT YOU
(Jenkins)

(That was really good......yeah)
The suckers loose themselves in the games they learn to play,
Children love to sing but then their voices slowly fade away.
People always take a step away from what is true,
That's why I like you around,

I want you.
Yeah you do... you make me want you.

An open invitation to the dance,
Happenstance set the vibe that we are in,
No apology because my urge is genuine,
And the mystery of your rhythm is so feminine.
Here I am and I want to take a hit,
Of your scent 'cos it bit,
So deep into my soul,
I want you.

Yeah you do you do, you make me want you.
Oh you do you do, you make me want you.
(Send me all your vampires),
And I can't get enough,
And I can't get enough,

The village church yard is filled with bones weeping in the grave,
The silver lining of clouds shines on people Jesus couldn't save,
You want to know how deeply my soul goes, Deeper than bones, deeper than bones

Oh you do you do, you make me want you.
Oh you do you do, you make me want you.
(Send me all your vampires),
And I can't get enough,
And I can't get enough,

After we did it by the window sill,
Smoke rings drift into the midnight sky,
presently in the quilt that your mother made,
A prayer candle burns to fight off the gloom,
I said to live in this way is not for the meek,
And like a jazz DJ you talk me into sleep,
There will be no regrets when the worms come,
And they will surely come.

You do you do, I want you,
(Send me all your vampires),
I want you

I Feel A Bit Melancoly Tonight

2008-09-28T02:28:00.002+07:00

Countless nite passed since my last entry. I married to my love of my life and expecting the best gift Universe's giving me in this part of the space. If it's a baby boy i'll name him Tristan El Hakam Yara and if it's a girl, she'll be known as Hifsa Savita Ichtaca Yara. Call me whatever you want, i know the USG's result but expect the unexpected.

I'm waiting for the planet and the stars to get aligned and ready to celebrate my child arrival. Looking at 2-3 days, it's always like that, in the end, it's up to the Supreme God.

thousands miles of velvet blue scarf

2007-05-01T13:29:00.000+07:00

that written about her beauty and full of her

Time To Think

2006-06-22T14:06:00.000+07:00

The mountain is so high with it soothing breeze and splendid atmosphere,
it just feel so right. She have everything you need like fruit when
you'fe feeling healthy, the finest of the water spring from mother
earth, you can eat anything that walks with four feet or no foot at all
when you're feeling mmm a bit out of yourself even annoying mosqueto and
poisonous venom when you're not careful with your step... all and all,
this is the best thing ever happen to yourself. Yet, even God Himself
gave men 25 prophets and 4 holy books, there's comforts with adventure.
The beach is nice, you think, with it flirty wave, the water just feel
so exotic when it hugs your body, it just feel so ... hmmm ... fun. Now
the catch, it's just not came in a package.

phobia

2006-03-03T15:50:00.000+07:00

I dont like this. i keep checking on the phone waiting for her call
every exactly 15 seconds, i count. she promised to call me, but checking
every 15 seconds, i think even that is too much. my anxiesity building
up every 15 seconds which lead me to the temper zone. every 15 seconds
my mind grows nervous, steadily, this is not me. well it is me, when i
got owned. I'm getting comfortly uncomfortable with the whole situation.
where i want her solely for me. not even want to share with the rest of
the world. if i cant have that, I'm angry with myself. somewhere inside
my head the devil tempt me," maybe she's calling some guy, isnt that the
guy she crushed on couple years ago?". jealousy turning saint into the
sea. every 15 seconds i hear an increasing pace of my heartbeat. the
devil slowly tingling my heart, every 15 seconds. oh no, this is not me
if this is me i dont like this me. i think I'll start to have bizzare
dreams, of losing her. this whole thing making me uncomfortly comfortable.

December Sorrow

2006-02-27T13:36:00.000+07:00

then i realise
i'm sleeping a dreamless sleep
waking a sorrow day
as if i walking on this
endless path of nightmare
without you holding my hand
a bliss to my troubled eye
lonely, have been my day of late
then i realise
how your voice can guide me
walk, nay, fly through this oblivion
madness, laid before me when
i can't hear
that delightful tone you use to call
reach for me
delusive, have been my hours of late
now i realise
my heart giving an empty beat
false pulse
woe in every vein
i'm hollow

Sunday Morning

2006-01-22T18:01:00.000+07:00

Sunday morning rain is falling
Steal some covers share some skin
Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable
You twist to fit the mould that I am in
But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
And I would gladly hit the road get up and go if I knew
That someday it would lead me back to you
That someday it would lead me back to you

That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning
And I never want to leave

Fingers trace your every outline
Paint a picture with my hands
Back and forth we sway like branches in a storm
Change the weather still together when it ends

That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning
And I never want to leave

But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
Sunday morning rain is falling and I'm calling out to you
Singing someday it'll bring me back to you
Find a way to bring myself back home to you

And you may not know
That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow?

End of Year Commission Report

2005-12-27T15:34:00.000+07:00

Then i realised I'm sleeping a dreamless sleep Waking a sorrow day As if i walking on this Endless path of nightmare Without you holding my hand A bliss to my troubled eye Lonely, have been my day of late Then i realised How your voice can guide me Walk, nay, fly through this oblivion Madness, laid before me when I cant hear That delightful accent you use to call reach for me Delusive, have been my hours of late Now i realise My heart giving a meaningless beat A false hope in every pulse Woe in every cell I'm hollow

Horizon

2005-12-22T12:40:00.000+07:00

She was my horizon line An imaginary line That getting away When i approach it Who she might be A girl from mars? Is she Juno? Or with that Monalisa smile? Or even Venus herself? O well... I draw my own horizon line Close enough for my hand to reach For me to smell For me to love Mais... yo siempre recuerdo las dos monedas en esa fuente Como Juno. Como Venus. Ella hará siempre allí Como mí, yo encuentro mi amor

Where'd u go tis new year's eve?

2005-12-19T07:47:00.000+07:00

moi?! i want to go somewhere remote, totally. so i can experience new year's eve like another breeze less night. like another night where i lay back restless against my bed wondering what tomorrow have for me. like another night where i ... just like another night. to every questions out there asking why i'd do such thing, i have your answer. this will be my 23rd new year's for me. i can have my party any other time in a week. i have my reason to get wasted, even tonight. i can hang out with my friends any time i want without having them complaining to me. and to any other stereotype question.

Terrible

2005-12-07T17:17:00.000+07:00

Kutemui dia di sudut sepi hatiku Duduk termenung entah apa yang ada di kepalanya Ia datang membawa cerita lama Seribu pertanyaan "kenapa tidak?" I stare at her willing to share After all this is where my heart is dwell Then i saw there's no end to this enigma I decided this is the only place for me Sayang, bukan kau tak cukup untuk semua ini Baby, stay here next to me This is the waktu when aku butuh kamu the most

New Year Eve's Drawing Near

2005-12-06T10:56:00.000+07:00

*sigh* another year's going by. Where will i be this new year eve? What will i become next year? With Whom i might spend that night? *sigh*. Always, such an endless questions.

Blazing 24hours

2005-10-21T05:43:00.000+07:00

So, i cruisin the dawn with billy looking for sum net cafe. First, we ended up at jalan cilacap who turned out filled with plenty of geeks and slow internet connection. I told billy we should zip from the spot find somewhere else. Then i remembered a place mentioned in my friendster bulletin board @ sarinah.

We came, We online and trust me i keep astounds. The place is marvelous. 150 pcs, sum with dual core pentium procesor. Private booth. A/C (freezing). Good service, no-one bothering us up to now. And what more is, since its a trial, we got 7 hours free.

Gotta tell you guys, this place is something. It call 24 hours cyber cafe or something at sarinah next to Manchester United Cafe.

Rudyard Kipling

2005-10-15T03:32:00.000+07:00

/If...
If you can keep your head when all about you are losing theirs and
blaming it on you
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you but make allowance for
their doubting you
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting or being lied about, don't
deal in lies or being hated, don't give way to hating and yet don't look
too good, nor talk too wise

If you can dream, and not make dreams your master
If you can think, and not make thoughts your aim
If you can meet with triumph and disaster and treat those two impostors
just the same
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken twisted by knaves to
make a trap for fools or watch things you give you life to, broken and
stoop and build'em up with worn-out tools

If you can make one heap of all your winnings and risk it all on one
turn of pitch-and-toss and lose, and start again at your beginnings and
never breath a word about your loss
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew to server your turn long
after they are gone and so hold on when there is nothing in you except
the will which says to them "hold on!"

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue or walk with Kings -
nor lose the common touch
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you
If all men count with you, but none too much
If you can fill the unforgiving minute with sixty seconds worth of
distance run
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it and -which is more-
you'll be a Man!

/Thanks to you for showing this ;)

Wind of Change

2005-10-13T15:56:00.000+07:00

Then one day i told my friends," dude there's something happened today
that would change me forever". Everybody start questioning the reason.
Even I cant find the reason. I just feel like it, change, of course.

I feeling like getting married, graduate my college any time soon
(ASAP), taking control my life, raising children, get myself a good job,
a good business and stuff. Billy told me that my age is catching up on
me. Maybe he just right or maybe he is not, a just answer by the way.

But, i fully agree with a certain entity that i did look up for some
enlightment.

Rizalsiminasi Part II

2005-08-20T20:05:00.000+07:00

Never thought this blog will survive to see this day. that mean it has been a year i use tis blog.
Now, about being 24 ya? ... nothing change, just plain simply me... nothing more nothing less.

Too many blogs

2005-08-13T08:42:00.000+07:00

Whoa!! i caught myself in the middle of one,two,three ... five blogs so far. i dont know what i gotta do with all of these? Blogger got the most efficient feature, log-in and log plus the email feature. friendster on the other side got this link rite, so everybody's being frequently notified each time i update my blog.

i'm thinking about using the blogger... 1 account with multiple blogs is allowed. but i'm still figuring how to keep my friend update... hmmm

Sonnet 73

2005-02-23T14:14:00.000+07:00

That time of the year thou mayst in me behold
When yellow leaves, or none, or few, do hang
Upon those bhoughs which shake against the cold
Bare ruin'd choirs, where late the sweet birds sang
In me thou seest the twilight of such day
As after sunset fadeth in west
Which by and by black night doth take away
Death's second self, that seals up all in rest
In me thou seest the glowing of such fire
That on the ashes on his youth doth lie
As the death-bed whereon must expire
Consumed with that which it was nourish'd by
This thou perceivest, which makes thy love more strong
To love that well which thou must leave ere long

2005-02-15T16:06:00.000+07:00

i thought i was better than men, utterly
as i live my life taking a slight different from the common
by measuring things through and thoroughly
here and there i find myself thinking
figuring which box i'd choose next
fear of stepping at the wrong foot
but then came linda
a white silhoutte travelling at speed of light
stealing everything on her path
on the way to my heart, mystifying
her smile past through my multihued disguise
left me with nothing to hide
now, thinking seems a bit bias
every step feels vulnerable
i surrender myself to over-exposure
there where i find myself
sitting amongst men
the stupid one

2005-02-07T18:51:00.000+07:00

and so i've heard a storm is coming this way as the february 10th drawing near
storm is a term what they used to call an over 70km/hours wind and over 1mm/sec raindrops
which can summon a major skimuluswateverish cloud in less then 15 minutes
but when my car stopped and i kissed my girl, unchecked
huh?! whats dat again??
what storm??

2005-01-30T14:25:00.000+07:00

bons anjos que ela disse
the last few weeks, my life becoming so seductive
a sensuous life-style ridden my self control over one body
some of the part hardly inconceivalbe
while the rest grooming incubus in my head
my love worthy girl friend getting luscious
lunacy coup de main my mind
cobice nunca sido este maravilhoso
um majéstico leve derrotado meu lógico pensou
agora, aqui escrevo em portuguesse
porque pensa que isto é o laguage bem belo
por que? sou eu mantenhou fazer isto a mim?

2005-01-18T13:19:00.000+07:00

Dawg, it was a men night out
another miles down the road
another alcohol down the throat
until the dawn passed and the sun rose
have a chat over coffee
and then we realise
shit dawg it was a boys night out

2005-01-10T15:40:00.000+07:00

Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
but no matter
as much as my heart captivated
seperti kita yang dulu lagi

2005-01-09T13:43:00.000+07:00

Day becomes night
Night passed
A silly 30 hours rolled
What a mess we've been through?

2005-01-07T09:58:00.000+07:00

i sneaks up on my dream every now and then
have all my wish listed and double checked
hate it when something missed
a kiss that been missing all this time replaced
not much alike but a real vibe
thin red line become a real thin red line
where morale took even another step forward
where hands took even another step deeper
no one can tell which is worst or which is better
no one can tell which is forbid or which is not
but when everything stops
there's a sweet bliss between us
and i have it double checked

2005-01-04T16:09:00.000+07:00

surprised with the voice at hand, held me in a trance state for a moment. well, life have to move on.
while in the other hand... missus a bit edgy today. i pledgely walk my way through forgiveness which one is hard to get.
well, i think i should focus on task at hand... my life which have to move on

2004-12-28T13:48:00.000+07:00

Nature showed her power
Will us, human, satisfy with what we have done
to her??

"Dan terlihat kerusakan kerusakan di muka bumi disebabkan oleh tangan tangan manusia" -some phrase from Al Qur'an

2004-12-23T19:19:00.000+07:00

6 friends of a kind
booze
miles down the road
another booze
a night to remember
history just been made

~you better watch out you better not cry
~santa claus is coming to town

2004-12-21T13:15:00.000+07:00

Not that beautiful as it get
But as much as my heart captivated
Her lips may defy gravity
But Newton himself never doubt it
There might be no animal magnetism
But i will say,"MAGIC"

2004-12-15T13:49:00.000+07:00

she flew over the ocean
soaring in singapore mist
days seems too long
untuk seseorang yang menunggu

Membuka Kesat Permata

2004-11-30T13:52:00.000+07:00

Hati ini bergetar mengikuti kata-kata miring 60 derajatnya
Bagus2 ini bukan mid-engine, V12.

Mata ini menutup
Ternyata dia tidak seindah itu
Tapi mimpi ini akan di bawa kemana
Kalau tidak di telurusi ber-2

Indahnya indah masih seperti dulu
Masih mempesona detak jantungku
Dan percayalah
I took everything into consideration

Perfection is not everything, just another detail

2004-11-27T18:59:00.000+07:00

Enthralled with reality potrayed in front of me, blotching those sweet holy days. My mind in a state, how you put it, calamity. It's not about making choices its about right or wrong, a noble deed i deem.

Anyway, as i walk on my own path... every grasp she made seized my eyes. Now, i learned how to majesty her smile and au fait du bacio.

2004-11-26T11:28:00.000+07:00

Kutemukan dia sedang terlelap di sampingku. Hening tanpa cela. Kamarku bertanya-tanya," kenapa lu bos? ga kaya' biasanya?". Aku? diam saja... akupun bertanya... dan akupun belum mendapat jawaban.

Akhirnya aku bertemu dengan adikku. "bang, life is all about choices loh".

bener juga sih.

2004-11-19T15:48:00.000+07:00

Kata orang jodohnya sudah dekat. Aku takut. Sepertinya beberapa hari belakangan ini hidupku yang membosankan ini dipenuhi oleh hawa ketakutan.

Pagi ini dia terlihat menawan. Seperti yang pernah dia lakukan kepadaku sekitar 7-8 tahun yang lalu. Aku takut. Sepertinya beberapa jam belakangan ini hidupku yang membosankan dipenuhi oleh hawa ketakutan.

Dia jatuh cinta. Aku tersenyum. Apakah itu cinta? Sepertinya beberapa minggu belakangan hidupnya yang begitu mengesankan dipenuhi oleh hal-hal yang menyenangkan.

Aku tertawa. Apakah dia sudah memutuskan untuk melangkah lebih jauh? Kita lihat 1 sampai 5 hari ke depan, Mimpi siapa yang paling menakutkan.

2004-11-18T09:24:00.000+07:00

Bibirnya terluka. Kering. Aku disini hanya menganga.Di ruang perenungan.Merenung, Gamang...
Jiwa ini tidak menemukan letaknya Let alone my heart. Should i stay or should i go. Kata kata ini menghiasi indahnya kalbuku. Indah? Itu dia. Aku lupa akan indahnya indah. Dimana dia? Bersembunyi di antara rongga kosong? atau di tengah kehampaan? either way, sama saja. i miss the art of beauty.

Bibirku pilu. Bingung. Takut berkata-kata. Takut. Takut. Takut.

2004-11-12T18:46:00.000+07:00

I releases my soul hundreds of times
And i falls from my knees
Again,
I reborn
Because i hear you calling
It makes the best of me shivers

2004-11-09T15:46:00.000+07:00

Terjaga dari mimpi bidadari itu
Senyumnya masih terasa di bibir ini

2004-10-23T01:18:00.000+07:00

I met her at the corner of my ears
Purple haze crowned my ice
Night over february's skies
Mistified and i lost in your eyes

I better give her something good
She said it's a long way out
I'm gonna make it out
Cause i'm all her

Jane says, you're as Holy as a ghost,
But who loves you the most, if you offer
I might let you carry me

2004-10-16T04:44:00.000+07:00

I picked out your star
Turned night to day
A simple whisper from your voice
And I fade in
You wish for love
You pulled me away
The air I breath

Will you stay or will you walk?
Cant you hear me screaming?
You left me alone
Thinking of days, Thinking of ways
Thinking of things that i should say

And when you open your eyes
"How r you today baby?"
Realize i've been watching
Ur move, thought, fingers and song

Selamat Tinggal Kesendirian

2004-10-03T18:45:00.000+07:00

120 hari aku melangkah sendiri
Melebur dengan kesunyian hati
And i Follow the Light
Down to the Club
Where i found her
Sitting and waiting all this time
Mendengarkan setiap tawaku
Ada untuk resahku

Now...

She fills my lungs with passion
My heart with trust
Dan hariku dengan senyumnya

Apa yang Tuhan tunjukan buat gue??

2004-10-02T11:03:00.000+07:00

Kenapa gua bisa selemah ini?? kenapa gua ga bisa sendirian?? kenapa gua harus jujur?? kenapa harus dia?? kenapa harus melewati dia yang lain?? kenapa sekarang?? kenapa ga dulu aja?? kenapa baru sadar?? kenapa ga sadar?? kenapa bersalah?? kenapa ga cuek aja?? kenapa harus sayang?? kenapa ga main2 aja?? kenapa ga buat ngisi waktu luang aja?? kenapa harus jadi orang baik?? kenapa di kasihanin?? kenapa gua harus di kasihanin?? kenapa ga gua jadiin?? kenapa harus berasa takut?? kenapa musti malu?? kenapa ga sekarang??

kenapa di pertanyakan??

Tuhan sudah menunjukan... kenapa ga lo jalanin aja!

Pulsar kelas Oraganisasi International

2004-09-23T20:11:00.000+07:00

Ketika aku mengagumimu
Aku ttp mt ini
Kubiarkan diri ini tenggelam
Dalam mata hatiku

Ketika aku buka mata ini
Ku tersadar dari mata hati ku
Terbangun dari mimpi buruk
Aku masih Mengagumimu

Ketika aku menatap mata kamu
Mata hatiku bertanya
Mengapa aku mengagumimu
Mimpi itu datang lagi

Aku sedang mengagumimu

one evening hennessey

2004-09-18T23:30:00.000+07:00

Got invitation from my uncle. he was having this Hungarian fellow playing piano for the entire evening. Nice guy, very nice guy. With his deep low and flat voice, surprisingly, he's a good pianist. The conversation never been too far from his experience. Atoning steps and learning new stuff.
As we speak and yeah as the hungarian play... my mind wander back to an old song, it goes;

Fly me to the moon
And let me play among the star
I want to feel hows spring is like
On jupiter and mars

In other words
Hold my hand
In other words
Kiss me baby

or at least how supposed to be... now now, since it mentioned Jupiter. I remember about writing the exact thing somewhere in this cyberspace. And lucky me... i found it!!!

A Space for Heart

Saturn steal my eyes before i left solar system. spoken through my pair of ear about an angel with jupiter drops in her hair. apraise her with words drawn by silver spurs,"when you kill a cat, you grown a mouse" she said. even a heart of an archangel have denial.

i turn my head, spread my wings, and left.

but, deep in my well hidden heart...

i'll turn myself to the devil if i must, just for her.

now i understand... i think i hvta gt some sleep... vsop is still something about higher lever for me to pul.

Di Hati Sesuatu Tersembunyi

2004-09-05T18:29:00.000+07:00

Mata dimandikan cahaya dia
Hati menyergap makna
Kenapa kata-kataku terseret bunga seroja
Semua mengisahkan Kahiyangan

Bisakah aku berjalan di surganya??

Dunia yang lebih besar berada di luar langit ke tujuh
Namun sungguh menakjubkan
Bahwa ternyata di dalam hati tersembunyi sesuatu yang tidak terbayangkan

August Menace

2004-09-03T20:32:00.000+07:00

1st, there's always a birthday to look forward to. a party to arrange, relatives to call, life to think about and other stuff. 2nd, new semester is on the door step. again, friends to call, classes to arrange, life to think about and other stuff. Now, you see this stuff runs for the last 6-7 years now. With my "yearly" problems, sometime even i amaze myself that i could keep up with this kind of life. I gotta break the cycle, wonder how, wonder when.

This particularly august a bit, let say, symmetrically awkward. Foul love amongst friend that went amiss. Gambled up to 5 figures, bond. My sister finished her study, THAT! officially stated that she just overtake me. The last "my only love sprung from my only hate".

*sigh*, can't life just get weirder??

Satu Cahaya

2004-08-26T03:39:00.000+07:00

Dulu, gw lupa kapan...
gw nyaris kehilangan seorang teman
dia ninggalin gw dengan hati yang terluka
gw duduk disini mendengarkan suara kuburan
ga kebayang wajah itu bisa kehilangan sinar mentari
dia selalu tampil manis dan lucu
kenapa dia ada di sekitar sini

dia mengatakannya dengan dingin
gw pingin kebahagiaan yang sejati
gw kira akan gw dapetin di elo

dan gw ga bisa misah dari diri ini
tapi gw yakin pasti ada jalan keluar
dari jalan yang ribet ini
melalui jalan2 yg rusak dan aneh

gw lari ngelewatin semua kecanggungan ini
dengan satu cahaya di tangan gw
tangan yg menggenggam cinderella
ketika dia menangis

ta, gw hanya mencoba mengatakannya
mencoba menjadi teman yang baik
meskipun setelah mengatakannya
mungkin gw tidak seperti teman yang baik

percayalah gw ga setegar itu
pada dasarnya

Birthday Snapshot

2004-08-22T22:16:00.000+07:00

My b'day party was a blast!! thought i aimed for the family's, but i see i bagged some my close friends attention nothing cant's stop these guys from coming to my party. miles they had before evaporating my... mmm... a bucket (4litres) of ice cream, 3 kilos of meat, 50ish sauteed squid, 2 dozens of grilled fish, 15 --2L-- cokes, *sigh* i lost count sheeps.
i find difficulty uploading a pack of photos down to this blog. i tried couple of ways, but, end up ugly. maybe, give the title a click... perhaps flickr could help me solving the problem. just cross your finger.

Rizalisaminasi

2004-08-20T00:00:00.000+07:00

Tuhan-ku berlutut di "hadapan"Mu
Ku tanggalkan angkuhku
Ku tanggalkan duniaku
Memohon
Tinggikan sukmaku agar aku lurus di jalanMu
Benarkan hatiku agar aku menyebut namaMu
Rendahkan kalamku agar aku sujud di murkaMu
Bersihkan pikiranku agar aku ikhlas di agamaMu
Tuhan beri aku cahaya Mu
di depan, di belakang, di kiri, di kanan, di atas, di bawah...
di hatiku..

...Selamat Ulang Tahun Jal

Supranatural Encounter

2004-08-19T06:58:00.000+07:00

i was vast asleep and dreaming. Di mimpi gw, gw-pun sedang rebah2an ada boboy n alex disitu. boboy berkata,"lex, ga tahan gw, ni rumah banyak kuntilanaknya. tuh ada satu di samping (sblh kiri) ismu" dan disaat itu juga gue ngerasa hanya badan sebelah kiri gw aja yang kesetrum2. antara mimpi dan nyata ga ada bedanya ... Kesetrum2 itu masih ga ilang, dan gw berasa "ketindihan" cuma sebelah kiri aja. gue "baca2", baca apa ga tau... "rasa" itu masih ada. gw inget kata boboy yang penting "baca"nya ikhlas. pas udah mo antiklimax getu, hansip yg lagi ngeronda ngentongin tiang listrik. saat bunyi ke-4 gw ngerasa ada suara yg terbang keluar dan diluar sekarang ada suara ce tapi ga jelas.

Bukan yg pertama kali yang beginian ada di kamar gw. gw sih fine2 aja... tapi kenapa musti gangguin gw tidur?

Wednesday Swift Synergy

2004-08-18T15:26:00.000+07:00

"the weather is very gloomy lately,...i wonder is it the sadness of heaven,.. i wonder ,..hahahhaahaha..."

i dont mind spending everyday looking for a girl with a broken smile

To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow, Creeps in this petty pace from day to day, To the last syllable of recorded time; And all our yesterdays have lighted fools The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle! Life's but a walking shadow; a poor player, That struts and frets his hour upon the stage, And then is heard no more: it is a tale Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,Signifying nothing

~Selamat pagi semua...

2004-08-18T06:30:00.000+07:00

for a man like me who just barely live his days, Woke up at 5.30 never been this good. the urge to scramble eggs is a diva in central park concert. morning breeze, dawn sky, bird's singing lullaby manifesting serotonin deep inside my head.
HELL!! what's with all the romanticism...take a step forward to this glorious day with rapturous approach!!
Keep taking the pills

The End?

2004-08-17T18:12:00.000+07:00

Good Guy doesnt won his prom queen
he gained it
with efforts...
in the end...
...The prom queen bored
'n its time the bad guy come into the picture
The Good guy strained
with his brokenhearted heart
...back to zero
going down to loneliness
then deeper underground
Destination Tears

-Undated Journal Entry

2004-08-16T11:59:00.000+07:00

Save my day...

Go with The Flow - Rizal

2004-08-14T10:30:00.000+07:00

*sigh* another 10.30 am.
*sigh* another dream about her.
*sigh* another day to remind myself that i could do this.
*sigh* another saturday
*sigh* another after another.
*sigh* how could i live with all of this.

"ko, nyokap bokap tiara icad mana?"
eko,"udah pada pegi"

*sigh* here i go again